For so long I have lived a two-part life. One that centred around physical awareness. I would be so consumed with my physical body, weight, muscle mass, nutrition, cardio levels, measurements, hair, and so on. While doing all of my sculpting, I also went to school & starting reading very deep, & meaning books. The journey began. I have always known that there was something burning within. The desire, the need to be more. The need to do more, or something. For years this feeling of "what else" plagued me. I read everything searching for my answer of a clue to where my eternal path would lead me. Jumping from job to job, (many of them very good & high level positions) most of them I excelled in only to find myself bored two years into the position & either self-sabotaging them or moving on to the next challenge. It wasn't until I had kids that life really took an emotional change. My search for internal peace & meaning really seemed to be magnified. I knew that I really needed to find my roots to be able to provide my kids with a stable, motivating & encouraging life.
My two-part life went in stand-by mode for about two years while I loved, nurtured, & enveloped my kids with every ounce of love, energy, smothering a mother could give. Knowing that I am truly a good mother, I felt I could take a step back & focus on me a little a take some time to commit to getting back in shape, meditation time, & social time. I know what it takes to lead a balanced life, I know, I read, I get it...but knowing & doing is a different story when you are so committed to your kids, & family. The push to move forward only came from a series of dreams I had been having over a period of about 5 yrs that came to a head. After coming to a break through in all my internal struggles for perfection, I really walked into the light of my truth, my authenticity, my Soul!
I now am living a three-part life. I can recognize myself when I look in the mirror, I am not looking for more, or better, I am looking at me. Not a lesser version of who I am...I am looking at me. Me, myself, & the "I". We have heard this a million times but never really thought about it as the physical, the mental, the spiritual. The "I" is the spiritual, it is the soul that aches to be heard, to be released and expressed in the everyday, in the every moment. To live authentic, to live in truth of who you are, to live in the present of your own soul, your own spirit & be one with it, to embrace it, nourish it & praise it.
I walk with a knowing, a bravery, a courage, that I did not have before. I had a strutt before, I had a false sense of confidence & defensiveness. Now, I consciously let go in every minute I practice my authenticity. It is hard work, mental work is hard work...but shit, it is worth its weight in gold! To live each day knowing you have met up with yourself at last. It is a damn good feeling to be "soulful."
Each day I look forward to my meditation, my yoga, my writing, my creating, to know that I can become a better person in every day when I allow myself to be one with the truth of what is. For myself, for my kids, for my family, & to offer the world something of benefit - I am living a blessed life!
Everyone's journey to spiritual insight is different, it means something different to each person. Just know that you have a soul within you, a spirit that is aching for your connection. This spirit has a purpose for you, it has a need to be met, it needs you....
And oh, the fun, the love, the satisfaction you will feel when you arrive to meet it....
Remember that when you get dressed everyday, you tell a vision, you tell a story about who you are & what your about - "what's your story, what's your vision?" Tell your story - Live your Vision!
Peace Out!
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